Hair Brush and Grapes: Be Brave Enough

Be Brave Enough

09 October 2011 § 1

The best advice I read this year is: Be brave enough to break your own heart.
It hit so hard that I left speechless when I read it. It also hit me at the right time. At the time when I let my pride shield me from saying the truth to people. to friends, to you.
I refuse to acknowledge my feelings for you, because after all, you're not the ideal type. You don't read. You can't lecture me for hours about anarchism, Bakunin, deconstruction theories. You can't even talk to me about being an agnostic.
You don't have the arched back that always manage to make me weak on the knees. You talk somehow funny. And we don't even listen to the same music.

But but but. We have jokes that only understood by us. We have weird awkward moments that will turn into crazy laughter. We have what we have. And that should be enough.
That should push me to a leap forward and admit, yes, I think that butterfly in my tummy, is because of you. And yes, this restlessness is somewhat because of you.

But but but, I am still not brave enough to break my own heart. :)